It was day 3 of my "working overnight" plan - and it was the easiest night so far. I was super productive and I barrelled through loads of work. I went to bed with a smile on my face and slept hard for about 5 hours. From 9am-11, it was a series of wake up, fall asleep, wake up, fall asleep. Couldn't get comfortable. Couldn't fall back to sleep. I finally gave in, got up and took a shower. Which, by the way, felt amazing.
I'm not sure if it was the lack of sleep or this persistent, dull sinus headache that I'm sure is seasonally-induced...but making the kids lunch took all of the energy I had. Not long after lunch, I found myself back in bed and napping the afternoon away. I slept until 5:30 - and I am sitting here, just 6 hours later, so exhausted, I can barely keep my eyes open.
I got up at 5:30, made dinner, did dishes, did some laundry...sent the kids outside to play for a little bit (played with chalk...and Rosie colored Angelina's face completely blue...) and then got ready to help Ange with her homework. I have been saying since before she could walk that parenting Ange is a full time job. Never has that job consumed so much of me than it does during this coronacation. We don't have a set schedule for her - and that doesn't help. Her work, which I know isn't difficult for her, takes her far longer than it would if she was in the classroom with her teacher and peers.
Tonight's work for Ange didn't take as long as normal though...a fact for which I was
Fast forward to 10pm...RJ was STILL working on his work. Why? Because my charming and adorable little asshat spent the entire afternoon chatting up the ladies from school. I learned yesterday that the little girls in fifth grade are quite enamored with my boy. They all talk about him nonstop, per one of their moms. So earlier today, I gave RJ messenger for kids so that he could connect with his assorted girlfriends from school...and he connected for HOURS today.
His social needs took over his day, so at 8:30, when we should have been playing Rummy 500 and watching Harry Potter, we were sitting at the island, working on his fifth grade ELA assignment. It's a shame, really - because No-Nap Nicky conked the heck out a little after 8...and he is usually particularly deft at destroying card games.
Since I had entrusted him to stay on top of his own work and this was proving to be a mistake, I took a moment to review his google classroom to make sure he had submitted everything for the week. It was a good thing I did! Clearly, my lesson has been learned and the boy is not to be trusted with his own time management. We were clearly in for the long haul with him and suggested to Angelina and Rosie that they head up to bed.
A: how am I going to sleep with no device?
Rich: like most of the free world does. Like every kid in Ethiopia does.
Is this the new “there are starving children in Africa, so eat all your food?” Since we don't do a "clean plate" club in 2020, we need to find a new comparison.
Needless to say, I started snort laughing and couldn’t get my shit under control. Which caused Sir Stallings to stop watching his f*cking video and throw some commentary my way...
Me: watch your video.
Rich: like the Ethiopians can't
Rosie: is Ethiopia really a place?
Done. Just done. Rich is throwing all blunt objects in Rosie’s general direction and I am searching the internet for some sort of educational tool to teach my ding dong about the continent of Africa and its countries.
Aside from this general tomfoolery, I did loads of laundry. Loads and loads and loads of laundry. I showered today - and took the time to blow dry my hair. I even got dressed! I am a little ashamed to admit that today's shower *might* have been the first of the week...this whole thing is definitely taking a toll on our household hygiene habits. I have been operating out of my PJs and sweatpants - jumping out of bed to start the day at noon...climbing back into bed to work at 10pm...with nonstop activity in between. The shower felt amazing. I am going to make more of an effort to take care of myself on a more regular basis. My practices in self-care were the first to go!
I took a fun “what does your name say about you” quiz which was largely accurate..and answered a fun Facebook post asking you to compare a picture of you from when you were little to now. I like to think I haven't changed much. The original poster on FB thought Rosie looked like me from this picture. I showed Ro - and she said she saw it too. There's a first time for everything! Fun on Facebook. So. You know. Totally productive. Whatever. I’m allowed an off day!
Also - Using the last square of toilet paper made me laugh. Uncontrollably. Like - laughed until I peed. Fortunately, I was in a good seat for that to happen!
I think this whole social distancing thing is getting to me a bit. It's hard to always be chipped. It's hard to not constantly think about the things we are going to miss. I miss cheer. A lot. I miss my cheer babies. We should have had our second competition last weekend and be working on getting ready for our third. I miss dance. I miss the rigormorall of our day-to-day lives. I even miss making lunches.
I am trying as hard as I can to focus on the positive and just enjoy being with my children. My kids are totally amazing - but I do miss my friends. When we get out of here, and hugging is ok again, I'm just going to hug as many people as I can.
But, for now, I'm just going to enjoy this time as much as possible. For right now - that means not stressing about all of the things that I *need* to do and instead spending time recording my feelings while my Rosalicious practices her french braiding technique. (Which turned out to be dutch braiding...but I think her first and second attempt went super well!)
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